Limbo

That's where I am.
Where am I going - I don't know.
Where should I be going - again, I don't know.

So help me - whomsoever can - so that I can go where I should be going.
This absence of purpose, absence of a goal in life, is taking its toll. I hope its not too late!

2008 is here already

Just one day into 2008 and it feels so strange. We've lost 2007 and I guess it makes me feel like something to be cherished hasn't been given its due. What do we do, we are already past that...

Awaarapan Banjarapan

Dil Jis Cheez Ko Haan Kehta Hai
Zahen Usi Ko Kehta Hai Na
Dil Jis Cheez Ko Haan Kehta Hai
Zahen Usi Ko Kehata Hai Na
Ishq Mein Uff Yeh Khud Hi Se Ladhna
Ek Saza Hai Seene Mein

Awaarapaan Banjarapan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein...

Khanjar Se Haathon Pe Lakeeren
Koi Bhala Kya Likh Paya,
Khanjar Se Haathon Pe Lakeeren
Koi Bhala Kya Likh Paya,
Humne Magar Ek, Paagalpan Mein
Khud Ko Chala Hai Seene Mein

Awaarapaan Banjarapan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein...

music

There's this song from a tamil movie - Kadhal Desam. It's called Anbe, or literally Oh dear.
And there is this one line from that song:

Meyyaga nee ennai virumbatha bothum,
poi onnu sol kanne, en jeevan vaazhum, ...

It means (I lack the poetic sense to do anything more than a mere translation):
In reality, you may not have any love for me,
but telling just one lie might make my life, ...

It's not the just the lyrics, but the words, the music and the voice... the combination.
Not once does this aural stimuli fail at making it straight to my heart...

where are you?

I saw her... It happened at some place. Not where I was brought up, or not somewhere I lived long enough to claim that I knew the place well.
I saw her, and she saw me. It seemed like we had known each other for a long time. Subliminal communication. I felt that I needed to be with her... I knew she felt the same, I could tell... I could tell from her eyes, her very presence, she didnt have to say anything. Neither did I...

I woke up, it was just another weekday morning. Shit, I was late! As usual... I went to work and the day went by just like that. That night, I could not sleep. I was making conscious attempts at trying to make my mind follow up on the previous night's dream. I could tell there was something different about this dream.

I can still remember and see many of the visions of that dream. I could feel what I felt like in the dream. It surprises me that I could experience emotions that I encountered in a dream, so strongly. I wish I could really experience it in my real life.

I want to see you again. This time in my real life. Please come back.

I want to see you. Where are you?...

the greatest healer!

No matter how bad a thing happens in one's life, there is a cure that fixes everything like nothing happened. It is the greatest healer that has been around... forever... and it will stay... forever... It is available to anyone and everyone walking this earth. You don't have to be rich, you don't have to be priviliged, you don't have to be influential to avail of this great power. The greatest healer... time...

Time is the greatest healer of all times. But it is not alone in its crusade against sorrow. It is accompanied by faithful knights. They may be very small and seem humble and powerless. But everyone knows their potential. The faithful knights of time... tears...

Time and tears are on your side. They will help you go through the toughest of moments in life. Go ahead, live life. Experience the joys that come along. Embrace the sorrow equally, for time and tears well help you get through.

real or surreal?

Reel life is mostly surreal but for those rare occasions when one can draw some similarities.

Movies. It's humans who makes them. Those minds that draw inspirations from real lives to depict a surreal life. Whose real life do they draw inspirations from? I seldom knew the answer until I saw this movie. This movie had quite a few components that bore non-trivial but striking resemblance to some of the events of my life. I could not believe that such a movie could ever be made. It almost made me feel that the writer/director took a peek into my life - some of the untold stories of it. It almost made me forget the difference between real and surreal...